So what happened?
So I was working for a retail company as an in-house designer, and just recently was laid off, which is probably the worst feeling the world. Well - one of them. It's a terrible story and I won't put ya'll through it, but it happened. It's a good things that it happened.
Work started feeling very laborious. When I first started, I loved it. It was hard, but I loved it. I'm very much a believer in doing something you love and making it work for you. But something happened. I always felt like I was trying to do new things and get ideas out there, and it just wasn't being heard. That doesn't sit well with me, so I kind of started getting lost. I used to wake up everyday and be excited to go to work, but for the past year, I really hated it. I dreaded it. It was a negative environment, I felt stunted creatively, and it just wasn't a good situation for me.
Anyway - I'm out. I'm taking a big ass leap and working on my own freelance design business and building my own brand. Working for myself is the only that I will be happy, so I needed that push of being let go to just do it and do it the best that I can. Have you guys ever gone through that?
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Well, I had a big break up with my boyfriend at the time. Things were just bad and I had a rough time getting over it. When it happened everything just went crazy for me. I got really sad, and just had to force myself to do anything. So I started writing, again. For those of you who don't know, I'm actually a musician. For a while, that kinda of fell out sight for me. The breakup spurred my creativity and I pumped out a bunch of new music.
I started going to open mics and getting myself out there. When things happen in my life that are a bit tough, it takes a lot for me to let other people in and talk about it, so I rely on writing or music or art to work it out. Eventually, I started to getting gigs and 2 years later, I've played at a bunch of big places here in Philly. It's still something I do, and I'm still looking to see where it will take me.
What does that mean? Well, that means in my vlogs you'll get to see what it's like to try and make music happen as an independent artist in Philadelphia. I'll take you to my gigs, and you'll see how I get ready, check out my outfits, etc.
Do you guys have favorite local artists?
So, shortly after the breakup, I sort of spiraled a bit. I drank way too much and I kinda stopped caring about my body. A friend of mine had pushed me to go to the gym with her and try this thing out called crossfit. It was interesting to me, but, you have to know, I used to walk into globo gyms and have anxiety attacks. I had bad experiences being in gyms (a topic I can go further into detail - but I will hold back for now cause that's a whole other story), so the thought of going to her gym made me nervous. I needed to do something though.
So I sucked it up and showed up. Little did I know, I was entering a cult. A cult I'm still a part of today. It has changed me so much and made me a much stronger woman physically and mentally. I have a much healthier relationship with my health and my body and am damn proud to be a crossfit chick. My gym has brought me a ton of new friends and opened my eyes to things I thought I would never do.
So yeah! That's the cliff notes of what I've gone through in the past 2 years. Tell me what's new? What's going on? It's amazing to just kind of sit and think back to where I was 2 years ago and compare that to who I am today. I'm so much more confident and I feel like I've come into my own. I hope you guys are still with me because we're about to have some fun!